i just need you to tell me that its okay

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 07:06:00 GMT

i dont care if pastors read this thing or not.
- i am seriously about to kick the living shit out of you its unbelievable

i hate all boys. every single one

and yes i said shit. get over it.

ill never be good enough for you. but boy you'll never measure up to my standards

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 22:29:56 GMT

so i havent updated this thing in a loooong time.
to be honest i kind of forgot i had it
not much has been new lately
new york city was absoulty amazing
everyone had such passion for the city
and it was beautiful
just seeing all the people and realizing how big the world is
the wedding was incrediable
and i love love love love brandon and ryan

but this year has been by far one of the best years of my life
i love my friends so much its unbelievble
i love going to school and seeing all my friends
i love how ill always have a speacial place in my heart for people and care for them but im soo over issues and it feels good.
i love when people tell me im georgous-- even though im not it just makes my day alittle bit brighter
i love going to starbucks and sitting outside with my girls talking about everythinngg
i love when i dont go to school because im sick and as soon as school gets out i have 13 people at my door with hot soup
i love just having girls night out
and going out to dinner every single night with nichole and brittanie
and i dont know what i would do without any of them
they're all so differnt but when we come together were all the same
ahh i love it~ but enough about those dolls

i've decided that im so unhappy with how i look
like it makes me sick to look in a mirror
i see so many inperfections it groses me out
so im finally doing something "healthy" to change that
im working out 4 hours every single day
and wearing layers and layers and layers of clothes
hoodies sweatpants coats scarves layers of long sleeve shirts you name it ill be wearing it
and drinking as much water as i can without puking
and running at least 2 miles
so well see how fast i can loose weight by that way
should be intersting?

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 03:42:13 GMT

there comes a point
when someone walks into your life
and its then you realize
why it never worked with anyone else.

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 15:52:43 GMT

So homecoming was fun. I had a blastt. I cant believe it was already one week ago from today
wow but yeahh lifes been good =)
ill post pictures up later.
im gona go to buffalo wild wings with all the girls now sooo peace outtt

<3 Love Love Lovee <3

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 20:53:53 GMT

wow i competly forgot about this time. ive been to busy being a myspace whore.lol

so far this years been amazing. its been good and bad. but it was good to go back to school and see everyone again and make new friends. All the dramas back at good old lutheran north. but its not that bad. you just learn to ignore it. i had a buncha ppl over the other night. it was like a last minuet thing. My house almost blew up thanks to my smart friends setting off fireworks.. lol but yeahh ummm Homecommings comming up October 1st baby.Im going with matt =) So i kno ill have a good time.. Should be an interesting night. Im excited.. Ill post picturess later..

Samir and Andrew-- haha andrews face.

jessica, brittanie, me and stephanie.

Allie and Andy

Brittanie and Me.

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 19:44:15 GMT

school starts on monday. im excited to see everyone
this past week was funnnn.
this summer was good.
ill post pictures later

heres so advice for YOU.
get over yourself hun and grow up =)

peace niggas

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 03:57:44 GMT

Three imortant rules for breaking up. Dont put off breaking up when you know you want to. Prolonging the sitution only makes it worse. Tell her honestly, simply, and kindly. Dont make a big elaborate story this will help you aviod a big tear jerking scene. If you wana date other people just say so. Be prepared for the girl to feel hurt and rejected. Even if you've gone together for only a short time theres still a feeling of rejection when someone says they prefer the company of other to your exclusive company. But if your honest and direct and aviod making an emotional speech when you break up the girl will respect you more for your forward straight manner. Unless he's a real jerk or a crybaby you will remain friends.

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 16:58:45 GMT

im going to chicago with marissa in like 3 minuetss!!! make sure you call me

I LOVE YOU ALLLL <3

XoXo

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 19:46:51 GMT

yeah i came home from dance camp early

i fractured my shin.

it sucks. majorly

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 03:40:30 GMT

off to dance camp untill tuesday

make sure you call me cuties <33

ill miss each and everyone of you ;)

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 04:12:41 GMT

highlights of my week
* seeing andyy was nice again broguht back some good memories
* spending time with megan.. realizeing how much alike we are and having our good old talks like we used to

tonight really made me think. big time
and it really hit me big time at starbucks
i realized that i miss you so much.
i miss the talks, fone calls about absolutly nothing, the "iloveyou's" seeing each other, butterflys, feeling safe in your arms, holding each other, kisses, not caring about anything else in the world.
GOD..Lindseys SOO lucky
and i hope that she doesnt take you for granted like i did.
"because you deserve so much better then me"
just like you said
i didnt deserve you and it was wrong for me to think that i did.

but hey what else is new
im not good enough for any guy in my life.

i hate this emptyness inside of me.
i try to move on but

"WHY CANT I FEEL ANYTHING FROM ANYONE ELSE OTHER THAN YOU?"

answer that question and you'll be my hero

i just want to wanted somewhere
is that so hard to ask?
really...

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 16:24:49 GMT

1 month ago my world fell apart.
too bad you were my whole world

i really dont understand how you can have so much feelings for a person
and then not even want to talk to them ever again
and when you do talk to them you say things that break their heart
you dont treat a person you love or loved like that

but that just goes to show you that there is no such thing as love
and i do not believe in love at all anymore.

all it is, is an overused word that people use to get in someone elses pants.

i hope your happy now
because ive never been more miserable in my life

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 04:59:39 GMT

all i can say is i really never thought i would care if i ever saw your face again or not.
you make me sick
and now i know what sarah was talking about
dont you ever fucking use me again like that and then make up some bullshit excuse.
use me again and see what happens.
i should have known comming from you that this would happen
your a hyprocrit.
dont you dare get on me about paul when your with that stupid bitch Lindsey and you lie to me and say shes doerflingers, and you still like me.
what the hell is that

im done dealing with your shit.
for real this time
im not taking it anymore
i already wasted 4 months of my life
speaking of wich this thursday will be 5
jesus christ.

im such a fool

f*** you.
have fun with your new skank. i hope she gives you some good ass for 4 months
because apperantly thats all you want these days.

pointless

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 18:09:25 GMT

this summer is by far the best one yet.
with a little bumps in the road but overall its good
partys, new friends, old friends... can it get any better?
i dont think so

" if you do not know me or talk to me at all do not judge me"
im refering to joe and a coupple others on this one
you cant assume i do something or act a certian way.
just because i dont want to get involved in all your stupid drama doesnt mean you have the right to try and bring me into YOUR fights. leave me and tyler out of it because we have nothing to do with your foolish games.

thanks guys ;)

I love those summer nights <33
and the earlyy mornings too ;)
haha wooow

oh man.... gotta love it

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 18:27:47 GMT

im sick of your bullshit and all of your lies
because it seems to me thats the only thing you know how to do

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 03:18:38 GMT

THIS SUMMERR IS ALREADY SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!
and its just getting better and better from here on out.

4 amigos. late nights. partys. boys. people. bestfriends. tents. secretes. bonfires. pool partys. stoney creek =).
this is what summer is all about

OHH I LOVE ITTT

trapped in the cloest

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 18:27:48 GMT

its amaazing how you can comepltly change your moods within one minuet.
everything was perfect, and than booom that message
broke my heart
all of a sudden i didnt feel like being happy or going anywhere or hanging out with anyone
except you

i dont see why i keep doing this to myself..
im done getting close to people seriously
im sick of getting hurt

yeah ill get over him and try to move on
but i dont want too
i dont think ive eaten, slept in aboutt 4 or 5 days
maybe you'll like me now?
because your slowly killing me more each day.
god i hate this so fucking much

screw all boys.
</3 and the thing that botheres me the most is you dont even care,and all i wanted to hear is for you at least to say you were sorry. but i guess i cant even get that.

boom

Tue, 31 May 2005 10:59:08 GMT

today it ended. just like that. its over

in my head theres only you now

Sat, 28 May 2005 17:13:45 GMT

first my parents, and now you?
of all people YOU?
this is unbelievable

screw the drama, screw the friendships
im sick of being judged

im done.

Mon, 23 May 2005 20:21:14 GMT

2 months <3

Sun, 22 May 2005 00:37:36 GMT

I made the dance team today! :D

Sun, 15 May 2005 11:23:13 GMT

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY :)

Thu, 12 May 2005 02:15:03 GMT

i do not effing care who the hell you are
its against the rules..
and than to pretend to be my friend and call me up and talk to me for hours
and act like everythings fine
what the fuck is your damn problem. seriously

you always talk about poeple being immature
GROW THE FUCK UP!

dont look, or even talk to me.
you make me sickk you backstabbing bitch.

matt i love you thanks for everything
fridays going to be fun for sureeeee

MY BIRTHDAYS ON SUNDAY!!!!!!

woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Mon, 09 May 2005 05:02:52 GMT

HA HA HA HA HA HA LMAO

just got home from kristans party.
parents are gay!! they should eat hay

i dont like my parents. but i had funa at krystans.

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Sat, 07 May 2005 22:07:40 GMT

people cause drama because they like to feel noticed.
i came up with that conslusion and i think it fits.

random things im thinking about...
i really dont like her at all.
i reallly miss him alot
i want things to be how they used to be
she has definaltly changed in the past year

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY THAT I'VE CHANGED
highschool doesnt change people.
it just brings out who they really are.
i sweaarr to god people are really getting on my nerves

going to nicholes tonight and than krystins party is tomorrow.
i'll post pictures later <33

just wanted to let everyone be aware that my birthday is in 8 days so umm yeah start shopping

MAY 15th Babyyyy

absoultly pointless.big suprise <3